Postpartum Blues

So while I was taking the girls for a walk tonight I thought I'd do a post about being down about my body since having Olivia. I guess I didn't expect it to be so hard to fit time in to get my "normal" body back as I thought it would be. It's as though time is just gone before I can even think! Between just taking care of the girls and household stuff there is no extra time. Dan has to do a lot of sidework so he's gone most nights and Saturdays so I don't often have the option of him watching the girls for me to go to the gym. I've also tried working out at home during naptime and after they go to bed. But their naptime I need to be able to get other things done and by the end of the day I am done. So this past week I got up every morning and went to the gym at 5 for the 5:30 class. But with Olivia getting up at 3 then heading to the gym it has for sure caught up with me this week <yawn>. This sounds like a lot of complaining but I'm sure I can't be the only one. It just sucks and is frustrating when your friend is back at her pre-pregnancy weight at 3 months. Yes, you know who you are. And shall I get started on the rediculous breastfeeding hunger? That sure doesn't help along with not getting out much...I seem to continue to expand! These feelings just hit me some days and today is one of them, but I wouldn't trade my family or what my body did and has done for these two girls, I mean seriously. Look at them <3

Christmas Day

But I did have a little (emphasis on "little") encouragement today looking at old pictures we found and I am smaller than I was a few years ago. It made me feel a little better and to be thankful I don't have lots and lots of weight to lose. It's just so sad when none of my clothes fit and it seems like all I wear is stretchy pants or workout clothes maybe hoping I'll get one in? I think I may just need a jumpstart, does anyone know if any diet programs will work with breastfeeding moms? Such as, weight watchers, slim4life etc.

I was trying to decide whether to post a picture or not. But what the hay, we're getting real here, right?

Umm, yeah. Yikes.

Lol I sent my sister a few others I had found and she was yelling at me through text messages "Stop it, stop right now!" I think I have a few of her she would probably like me to lose forever :)

But now that I've vented and shared and probably more than most of you probably care to know...is anyone else feeling the blues this year too?